Recently I took such a massive leap of faith.
I decided to leave my stable, secure and comfortable job as a Nurse ( which I had done for the past 25 years) and jump with both feet into the world of self employment.
For the last 25 years I had felt so comfortable snuggled up in my comfort zone of SECURITY that I felt no desire to move.
Why would I ? I had a secure wage, a secure job and a secure future with pension and job guaranteed until retirement….
I considered myself to be very fortunate…But ….my health threw me a curveball and made me realise that my lifestyle was not sustainable…trying to do both Nursing and Hypnotherapy was causing ill effects…my body was asking me politely to make a change.
But I couldn’t listen to my body effectively at first because since childhood I have craved SECURITY.
I had an amazing childhood with both loving parents and 2 sisters who were much older than me but still had my back. We lived in the same house that I was bought home to as a newborn and the people in the road were like family. I couldn’t have asked for more.
But …..when I was 15 years old …about to start my GCSEs our house became repossessed. My Dad had been owed a lot of money from a large company that had gone into liquidation so the money he was owed in terms of his small business was huge and he had to declare himself bankrupt.
We lost OUR house and lost our SECURITY.
Everything seemed so uncertain….for the first time in my life I had been thrown into the unknown …where will we live?…can we afford to rent even?….the future was a conspiracy of what ifs and maybes!!
My heart ached as my Dad had to ask us children for our savings. To see how it affected my Dad in terms of pride was debilitating and I guess subconsciously my mind held on to these experiences.
But my Dad and Mum have always been fighters and they refused to sit in the corner and shout “why me”…they made changes and adapted and worked hard to build themselves and the business up again ..a business may I add which is still going now over 30 years later.
So this craving for SECURITY occurred from this point I believe. I now knew that you could work so hard for something yet it could easily be ripped away from under your feet at any given time. So I have grown as an adult needing to feel safe, comfortable and secure….
But what kind of life is that ???
I got to the point in recent months when my body was no longer asking me politely to change but had somehow sourced a megaphone and was on a repeating loop of “Something has to change”
But I was scared…..many sleepless nights and the fear of losing my security held me back until it seemed somehow I tuned into my thoughts and feelings and eventually my intuition started to shout louder than the fear.
“You know….you could actually do this “!!!!
” Take that first step “!!
“The time is right”!!!
…and do you know what ??…. it was …everything about the transition to move from the secure, known job of Nursing to the unknown, unsecure job of a self employed hypnotherapist was perfect.
A gentle knowing inside that it IS going to be ok…Ive got this!!! carried me through the fear zone !!!
By moving out of our comfort zones, despite needing to move through the fear zone we start to learn and grow and our perspective not only changes on our life but in ourselves too.
Through the progression of learning how we can overcome challenges and deal with mistakes, we gain confidence, which helps our self esteem and helps us to believe we can set new aspiring goals and participate in wonderful opportunities.
The world becomes our oyster ….. and our mind starts to believe ….”if I can do that, then I can achieve anything” !!! If we all stay in our comfort zones we would never know truly how much we can achieve.
So gorgeous people dip that toe outside that comfort zone and just see how amazing and awesome your life can be when we face our fears head on. x
Much Love
Vix